When God made his promise to Abraham, since there was no one greater for him to swear by, he swore by himself, saying, “I will surely bless you and give you many descendants.” And so after waiting patiently, Abraham received what was promised. Hebrews 6, verses 13-15.
God takes His own time to keep His promises. Yet all through history He has kept EVERY promise He’s made. He’s proven Himself to be reliable. Do you find it as tough to wait on Him as I do? It took DECADES for Abraham to see how God was keeping His promise. It took DECADES for Moses to answer God’s call fully and see how God had delivered the Israelites. It took CENTURIES, even MILLENIA, for people to see how God had kept His promise to send a Savior to deliver mankind from sin. Why do I get so pissed off when I feel God hasn’t answered me immediately? Is the problem with God or me? You know the answer.
Now, this isn’t to cop out and let God off the hook. Have you ever considered that God didn’t respond or answer in the way you wanted because He knew you couldn’t handle the response? That becomes an act of mercy, not of withholding.
Case in point: job hunting. It’s thrillingly maddening. It’s frightening, exhilarating, motivating, depressing, and completely necessary when your full-time position ceases to exist. Concerning my predicament, my comment must be “all glory to God. So far so good.” Things are moving along well, and years of preparation and accumulating skills are paying off. Yet behind all that, making it go forward (even making it go sideways every now and then) is the prepared, skilled hand of God. I’ve felt His pull in everything that has happened, and because I know He’s involved, I know things will turn out just fine.
Yet they don’t turn out on my timeline. I want the new job now. I want to feel secure again, to not have to get up every day and beat the reeds for some new lead. I want to know that I’ll be able to provide for my family, and pay our bills, and do the great things we have planned for this year. To be honest, I’m scared to death every day of being a middle-aged statistic and becoming one of the millions who can’t find work; one of the millions who can’t find ‘something to eat’ in the middle of a field of plenty.
Gut-check time: It’s not about me. Get off the “I” train, Dave, and check your six. God’s there. He’s the one covering me and what I do in this life is about Him. It’s about serving Him in whatever capacity He’s placed me. It’s about serving His kingdom using that preparation and those skills, and that means sometimes doing it in unconventional ways. And it means trusting God no matter what, even when I don’t understand why He’s moving me the way He is. Now is the time to be thankful some doors are closed. Behind them could be things that aren’t meant for me, or that could somehow make things worse.
Abraham waited a generation before seeing how God kept his promise. He was a very old man, in his 80s, when he answered God’s call to up and leave everything he’d ever known. Then he waited another 20 years or so before fathering Issac: the promised child through whom God would eventually redeem mankind. Issac waited decades before marrying the woman he loved, then waited longer before setting in motion the plan God intended all along. Jacob did the same. So did his son Joseph, then Moses, then David and Solomon. Humanity waited centuries before their descendant, Jesus, arrived to make all things new. And it has been two thousand years since Jesus promised to come back and then left. All along, God has been active, planning to do great things through His very good creation, man. All along, God has been working to reach all people, not just the prepared ones, so that all people might come to know Him and be saved.
Do you seriously think He doesn’t know what He’s doing? Do you truly think He’ll let us fall without being there to build us back up again?
So I keep looking for the new job. And I’m interviewing. And I’m doing what I can, when I should, to do my part in gaining new full-time employment. Like I said, so far so good. It’s all a gift from God. In God’s good time, a wonderful opportunity will present itself. Until then, it’s not about me, so I get to keep the faith and move forward.
For further reading: Genesis 22:16-17, Luke 1:73, Genesis 21:5.
Lord, I believe in You. Thank You for sustaining me, for preparing me, and shepherding me through scary, cold days. All glory to You.